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Well, here we are counting down the last hours of 2012 and thoughts undoubtedly turn to reflection of what has past, and dreams of what's to come.

I'm not really one for reflection.  No, really, I'm not.  I don't learn from my mistakes, and this isn't to mean that I make the same ones again and again all the time but I am my way and when you're your way and you know you're your way you're going to act your way regardless of what comes your way.  I am good with this.  Very, very good. 

In light of this, I wonder what I've learned this year?  Well, not much really.  What have I reaffirmed this year?  Plenty.  Oh yes, plenty.  I've reaffirmed that I can be a class A pushover, but only because I am strong and confident in myself.  I've reaffirmed that crying at movies doesn't mean you are sensitive, kind or thoughtful.  I've reaffirmed that my hair will never let me down.  I've reaffirmed that I am happiest when I push myself to places that I didn't think I wanted to go.  I've reaffirmed that while words are powerful, they mean less than zero if they are not backed by deed. I've reaffirmed that every ounce of willpower I know I possess somehow escapes me when I am looking at a piece of cake.  I've reaffirmed that I am not a give - up type of person.  I've reaffirmed that I can be just as foolish with my heart as I am with my money.  I've reaffirmed that the knee length boot is my Holy Grail of footwear - damn you calves!  I've reaffirmed that when you've gone through a tremendous and painful loss, it is ever harder to let go.  I've reaffirmed that the best people in your life are not the "I told you so's" but the "we get it's".  I've reaffirmed that I overanalyse like a MOFO.  I've reaffirmed Ben Wyatt & Leslie Knope forever! I've reaffirmed that life's greatest lessons come where you least expect them, thank you, Improv.

Most of all, I've reaffirmed that despite a year, well, actually, a life, of ups and downs and all arounds I have nothing to really and truly complain or gripe about.  I'm good.  More than good.  I am lucky. 

Was 2012 a bad year?  A  good year?  I'd say it was just like any other year - full of those ups and downs and all arounds.  It brought challenges and tears and heartaches and laughter and dancing and travels and friends and family and goodbyes and hellos just like every other year does.  It's how you look at all those things that make a year good, bad or special.

I want more of the same for 2013 - the good and bad, but mostly the good, of course.  I want to run myself a little less ragged and learn to make perfect pastry.  (I think I will accomplish one of these things).  I want to see lots of movies.  I want to enjoy my year of S travel in San Sebastian & South Africa and I want to continue my Holy Grail pursuit of those blasted boots.  I want to share in people's joy and be there in their sorrow and know that these people will also be there for me.  I want to be a better writer and a better improvisor.  I want to continue challenging myself.  I want to try and stop pushing my narrative so hard.  I want to stay healthy.  So, basically, I want more of the same.  Who needs new when what you have is pretty damn amazing?  Exactly.  And for you, I want all the things you want for yourself because you deserve them. 

Happy New Year, xxoo.